My life is quite hard at the moment. I’m not going to try to sugarcoat it anymore, especially not to people I’m writing for on a blog. When friends and family are asking me how I am, I tell them I’m okay. But the truth is I’m mostly just about hanging in there.
I’m not sure if it’s because I’m a bit depressed, or if there is just too much stuff going on in my life. There is nothing worse than feeling hopeless and that’s what I’m feeling right now. It’s a bit weird because I am actually doing quite well with work and I have a great set of family and friends around me to help me.
But I think there have been a series of things going wrong recently which have dampened my spirits.
I’ve already told you about my MacBook disaster and the trouble I’m having getting the retina screen parts locally. That is still going on and on bit concerned about getting a replacement screen sorted out. It scares me how much technology is at the center of our lives.
I’m also concerned about my mum, she has not been very well recently and I think age is beginning to catch up with her. My sis is also concerned and we both had a little bit of cry yesterday about everything.
So things are going on in my life, but I’m sure they are in everybody else’s as well. But sometimes things just get on top of us or and the smaller things can seem huge. I remember the old saying about if you think you are too small to affect things, imagine being a mosquito in a bedroom.
It’s a lovely saying, although not the implication, and when you think about it, it shows how something very small things can have influence and focus from things around it. That’s the trouble with problems, once they get into your head, they can be all you focus on.
So is any positive news in my life at the moment? Well I have my health, my exercise regime is underway and I started doing juicing. Actually not sure that is a good thing because I’m starting to get a bit obsessed with it now and I’ve been reading a lot about it online and I might have to rein in my feelings about losing weight from doing it.
But then that’s always the way, when one thing is wrong, other things seems to stack up behind it.